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KathyRME |
Sick of the headaches
Oct 22 2009, 4:02 PM EDT
Today was a particularly difficult day with group. Not that we don't work well together in the group, but sometimes it is frustrating when you see someone struggling with the same thing you struggled with in the past, and they just don't pay heed to your story (what I mean is they refuse to listen close enough to what you went through and learn so they don't have to go through it too). But, you know, I think we all have to go through it. I think that is the only way for us to learn sometimes; the only way for us to wade through the mess is to actually wade through it. Just a sad thing to witness someone else going through the same battle and there isn't anything you can do but be there while they do it. That is a huge thing though isn't it? I kinda didn't have anyone beside me while I waded through it. Well, there was my therapists (had three different ones in the heat of my past wading), but they were only there once a week--when I let them. That is the key--when I let them. Just like this member of my therapy group--they are not letting us in; not letting us stand beside them. They are focused on the support of someone who can't be there fully for them, and they are feeling very lost without that special someone. We all yearn for something deep inside. It is a different something for us all, but there is that dark void that we are all trying to fill. The dark void is the pain. It is the reason we are fighting forward to heal the loss of our innocence; the loss of our safety; the battle back from the betrayals. It isn't one thing; it won't disappear because someone hugs us without our asking; it won't fill in because we loose weight, get rich, have children, find a mate, or win that job promotion. It will only become tolerable when we acknowledge the losses, accept the pain, and make the decision to move forward while continuing to embrace and heal the past. Just some random thought. Do you find this valuable?
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