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KathyRME |
Detached for Survival
May 8 2009, 9:05 PM EDT
My soul is lostsomewhere in a corner while my body lies frozen I drift into nothingness avoiding all sensation as the betrayal goes on A void filled mass moves on commmand with no choice of my own Don't remember how it starts Don't remember when it ends Only remember the emptiness 2 out of 2 found this valuable. Do you?
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KANATKA |
1. RE: Detached for Survival
May 9 2009, 12:41 PM EDT
Kathy, how I felt those words. I couldn't talk in the beginning, only draw pictures. You spoke today of that picture of HER, standing in the corner with a larger shadow laying outer from her reflection. Her hair is short and messy. Cut like a boys because the mother would not take the time to comb her hair or listen to her cries when it hurt as she scraped her scalp. It's a ghostly picture that has the feelings you wrote when I could write none. Yes, we detach and float through almost as in an fog never really seeing, hearing or remembering "clearly" everything - until later. COURAGE BADGE to you for writing. Continue on.
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KathyRME |
2. RE: Detached for Survival
May 9 2009, 3:29 PM EDT
Thank you for the Courage Badge. It is never easy to write such words; to express such emotions which have been trapped within me for so long. But, there is tremendous benefit to release. Writing just happens to be my first phase of release. I allow myself, sometimes, to just sit and let the poison flow forth in words. This free writing allows me to look at what I have been hiding; choking on in my soul for so long. Once I get the words out that express my trapped emotions, then read what I have written, it opens a door for vocal discussion. It gives me guidance as to what is working its way to the surface for nurturance and support. Sometimes, I am not able to listen though. Sometimes, even the written words do not feel safe to come. Then, I just have to be gentle with myself and believe they will when they are ready.I am sorry for your sweet little girl who found herself sitting/hiding in a corner. I care, I see you, you matter. And I so can relate to the short 'boy' haircut because 'mom' just can't be bothered. Why in the world did they just not get it? All the red flags that something was terribly wrong with our souls - the messy hair, the messy room, the cries, the sadness in our eyes? We care now. We see, and we will pay attention and provide the needs that our little girls have. Gentle hugs to you, Kathy 1 out of 1 found this valuable. Do you? |
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wonderwhen |
3. RE: Detached for Survival
Oct 20 2009, 10:25 AM EDT
The wispers flutter through the airgently bending the innocent daisies over the darkness harnessed the twinkles in the sky oh please don't cry the entangled emotions spun a web, it's not fair I am lonely, please sit with me in the clover Let's talk a while, maybe you'll tell me why? I just want to cry. The bird's songs sing me away to a place far away the clouds roll in and the thunder roars reality crashes in 1 out of 1 found this valuable. Do you? |
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KathyRME |
4. RE: Detached for Survival
Oct 21 2009, 8:02 AM EDT
(((((Wonderwhen))))) gentle, safe hugs to you. Your writing depicts our little worlds to a t; Whispers, bending, harnessed, entangled emotions, lonely, why, far away, thunder roars, reality crashes in. Such a sad world to live in. Thank you for sharing. Speaking the words helps to let the truth out that we have held deep inside for so very long. It hurts to let it out, but eventually it is very healing. We will get back to the daisies and the birds and the stars without the thunder roaring in a horrific reality anymore.Peace and light to you, Kathy Do you find this valuable? |
