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| KathyRME | Stress | 0 | May 3 2009, 4:54 PM EDT by KathyRME | ||
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During the Easter holiday time I experienced some terrible stomach and head aches. I attributed it to a possible Spring flu bug traveling around. After a couple of days, the pain subsided.
Well, it is back. Now I am thinking it is a bit more than a flu bug. I am beginning to think it may be more due to my inner turmoil; beginning to think it may be expressions of the emotional battles which have been warring within. I recognized the pain's return last Wednesday when I traveled to a meeting which was to re-invigorage a group project. Then, on the way home, my pick up truck lost all it's motor compression-errrrr. So the thunder rolls. I fear that between the inner work I am doing in therapy, and the difficulties I am dealing with in my every day life are weighing a bit too much on my soul. I have been diagnosed with ulcers in the past and fear the issue may be back and intensified. This all just makes me feel so defeated (which certainly won't help the matter any). I feel so frustrated because I can't sort out whether physical pains are because of body memories, anxiety, and such or if they are because there is some health issue that needs to be addressed by my physician. I am either going insane or falling apart. I just know that I hurt and believe I deserve to discover a way to help myself feel better sooner than later. |
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| KathyRME | Rain | 0 | Apr 21 2009, 8:27 PM EDT by KathyRME | ||
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Rainy days can be days filled with couch snuggles and noses in books while contently listening to the tapping of the raindrops on the rooftop. But, rainy days can also send me into deep fits of depressed moods; sense of gloom and doom flashing back to the surface. Well, perhaps they don't send me into these dark places, rainy days just pull these emotions to my surface where they pour out like the runoff flowing down the gutter drain.
I guess it just happens to be the healing place I am in when it rains. My mood about rainy days also depends upon whether it rains during the day or night, whether there is thunder and lightening or not, or whether or not I am alone. Today it rained heavily all day. I was mostly content resting on the couch watching a good movie. Now, I am ready for bed and eager to listen to the pattering of raindrops on the roof to lull me to sleep. I believe there will be no 'light shows', so I feel safe to relax and enjoy nature's spring rain. |
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| KathyRME | Spring | 0 | Apr 15 2009, 4:03 PM EDT by KathyRME | ||
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Thread started: Apr 15 2009, 4:03 PM EDT
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What I look most forward to in Spring is sunshine and warmer weather. Winter in Maine can be very long and dreary. I struggle so with the duldrums during winter. It is so easy for me to sink into a slump when it is gloomy everyday and I don't get a chance to get out there and enjoy some fresh air and sunshine.
During the warmer seasons, I am the type of person who love to explore nature. I love hearing the birds twittering in the woods, love to see the brilliant colors in all the different flowers, and absolutely adore watching the puffy clouds pass over above. Winter has its beauty, but I don't see such variety that I enjoy in spring, summer and fall. Spring means a lift in spirits for me. It is like a huge weight taken from my shoulders. It is a time of renewed hope and motivation. I can begin planning and planting my gardens, walk amongst the chickens, and shoot photos from my kayak. Awwwww, what wonderful thoughts. |
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